A Chance to Apologize

by salguod

I missed an opportunity to right a wrong, to deal with a hurt I had caused. I’m pathetic.

Friends of our gave us a new bed and desk for our oldest daughter. It was a set of that frilly white furniture with gold trim, complete with canopy bed (but missing the canopy.) Jessica’s thrilled. After getting it all set up, I loaded her old bed into the Odyssey to take it to the Volunteers of AmericaThrift Store near us. It was about 8:00 PM as I drove into the lot and backed up to the door. The lot was kinda empty so I checked the printing on the door to be sure they were still open. Yep, M-F until 9:00. I flipped up the tailgate to unload and an employee stepped out to gather up the carts in the lot. He informed me that, sorry, he was locking up.

“But it says that you’re open until 9:00.”
“They’re closing early at 8:00 for a couple of weeks.” (I later noticed a paper sign taped to the door).
“So, I can’t even just drop this off?” I made sure my tone indicated how silly that would be. After all, the donations just get set just inside the door that was less than 10 feet from where I was standing. It would only take a second, surely he would oblige.
“Actually, we’re not supposed to take donations past 30 minutes before closing.”
“Really?” My tone had gone from irritated past annoyed strait to angry condescension.
“Sorry.”
“Hmph!” I made a big show of stomping to my van and put all 210 horse power to use across the parking lot. I’m sure that impressed him.

So the next day I made another go at it. It was 7:30-ish as I headed back to VOA. It was then I realized that I may have to face this guy again. Thinking back I felt pretty foolish about the way I had acted and even worse about how I had treated him. This guy was not the sharpest guy in the world. I mean no insult there, it’s just an observation, more a commentary on how folks probably view him. He works at the VOA thrift store and he had a stutter or some other speech impediment. He had long stringy hair and walked slouched over. He probably gets overlooked and treated like dirt all the time. So along comes some middle class white guy dumping his unwanted belongings off and gives him flak. Yikes.

So I pull up, just like before and jump out to unload. And just like before, he shuffles out the door to get the carts. Darn, I was hoping to avoid him. That’s when the voice in my head says “You should apologize.” The thought makes me uncomfortable, I just want to drop off my stuff and go. We exchange hello’s and I unload my stuff. I’m getting done and he’s coming back to the building, meaning I have another chance. I kow I should but it would mean admiting I was wrong. He might think I’m weird. He might yell at me. It’s just awkward. While I’m doing my mental gymnastics trying to avoid doing the good I ought to do, he makes it inside and I’m off the hook.

I walk to the car, disappointed in myself. Why was that so hard to do? I missed an opportunity to right a wrong, to deal with a hurt I had caused. I’m pathetic.

I buckle up and as I begin to drive away, I notice he’s coming back out. I stop and back up, rolling my window down. He walks over to the van.

“I wanted to apologize for the way I treated you last night.”
“That’s OK, I get that kind of thing all the time.”
“Well, that doesn’t make it right and I’m sorry.”
“Well, uh, that’s OK ... Thanks for your apology.”
“You’re welcome, have good night.”
“You too.”

I left the lot with less authority this time but feeling much more like Jesus. I hope my actions gave him as big a smile and brought him as much peace as it did me.

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Salguod is just a guy trying to find his way in a post-modern, emergent Christian world with a pretty modern perspective. I’ve been a Christian since 1988, but I feel like I’m still figuring out what that means. I’m married, a father of 3 girls and a deacon at my church, the Columbus Church of Christ.

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on 05/22/06

Thanks for that, Salgoud.

I find myself apologizing to people for exactly the same thing sometimes. But your story makes me realize even more that it’s the right thing to do, whether you’re Christian or not.

There’s peace in them thar words, “I’m sorry”. It dissipates anger in both the subject and the object of angry actions. Anger is something I’ve been learning how to deal with all my life and your story helped me realize that I’m on the right track.

Thanks again.

Kevin

Jana

on 10/24/06

I liked your story; thanks for sharing. Cuz, man, I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had to do something like that!  :( Or times I should’ve, but didn’t.  :(

on 03/29/08

Kind positive actions, by one person to another, can change both of their lives in ways they do not even recognize. The few moments that it took to say “sorry” may have delayed you just long enough to avoid some form of auto mishap.

In my youth, I used to do a lot of hiking. One day, early spring, I came across a sapling about 3 foot tall that had been uprooted and lying on its side. Most of the roots where out of the ground and bare. At first, I just gave it a passing glance. For some strange reason the further, I travelled away from this dying tree the worst I felt. I made it a point to return from my trip on the same path.

When I found the tree, I replanted it and then used large dead branches to keep it propped up. For some reason the remorseful feeling, I had changed to one of joy as though I had found a favorite item I had lost. A few months later I took another hike to see how it was doing. Instead of a tree that had uprooted I found a small tree in full bloom with the most amazing fragrance one could imagine.  I feel that was its way of thanking me.

on 06/15/08

I really think about it and i feel really sorry plus i need a chance to apologize to…
I need to say that when you’ve done something wrong you should forget about it. It should never come to your mind and think about. That always happen to me if i dont stop and think about what am i about to do. I really need to thank god and always be with him forever. :0DD

on 07/20/08

i think alot of people can relate to this! irecently got given a bunk bed for my little girls and appreciate you sharing this story.

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