A Letter to Myself

by LRF24

He knows very well what I desire.

I am a young adult, who like most young adults, wonders “when will I ever find someone?”  For quite some time, I had turned my back from God, thinking my way was better and definitely more exciting.  It was not until a certain night last week that I was completely and utterly helpless. I realized, in between sobs, that I had put so little trust in God and all of my trust in trying to make a relationship happen with the opposite sex, that I was ready to date whomever passed my way.  I needed help, and I vocalized this need to Jesus. I can positively say that He heard me, because as I was sobbing, the thought to read Psalms came into my mind. When I opened up to Psalms, I came across the verse “Take Delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart” (Psalm 37:4). This was EXACTLY what I was struggling with! I did not want to settle for a mediocre Christian guy, when I thought the attractive worldly guys were overpopulated!  God was clearly showing me that He knows very well what I desire (He put those desires there, by the way) and that all I have to do is delight in Him and in His timing, He will lead me to the RIGHT man. 

The God story does not end there.  I picked up a book (

When God writes Your love Story

) from my bookshelf, that I knew I should read.  Inside, I found a letter written to myself, that I had wrote more than a year ago.  It read, “...Nothing you try to arrange will work. Let God work! Stop worrying. God knows your desires to be married and find a real love one day, but He has you single for a reason. Seek His kingdom first”

Needless to say, the puddle of praise on my pillow was accumulating to a point of uncleanliness. But I did not care!  My God was speaking to me loud and clear: Trust in ME, I know your desire to be loved, Let me love you first.

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comments:

alison

on 01/12/09

Thank you for this story! I have a friend in Iraq with the mirror image feelings you decribe. I am going to e-mail this to her right away!!!!!!!

Rita

on 04/03/09

I found myself at this story…trying to find someone to love me…And really got the Best Way for us…the truth is He is our true love…I love Him!

Lizzy

on 09/15/09

Ah! i know EXACTLY how you feel in this story. I used to feel this way too…i put all of my energy and desires into wanting a relationship when i should have been giving my all to God. It wasn’t until I realized that i already had the perfect guy that would always love me more than anyone else ever will and more then i could ever understand…Jesus. God totally revealed the same thing to me that He did to you-Love Me first, Give me your everything, and most of all Trust me. (Proverbs 4:5) And i know now that God has an amazing Christian guy out there somewhere that loves God with all his heart, and that He will come into our lives at the perfect moment :)

Todd

on 11/01/09

Lrf24… As a man it may sound strange, but those of us that desire to honor our Father struggle with the same issues!

Sad part is… I hear all the lines about being single, not participating in premarital sex anymore, having a desire to only associate with women who love Christ…

It’s hard… Especially when gen reminds me that it’s not right for a man to be alone. Haha

But I manage… And God somehow keeps my heart and testosterone levels at bay so I can focus on his work.

I trust him with all my heart and have had to trust him with my life on more than one instance…  So I just have to rely on his wisdom and wait for the woman who will compliment me to do his work in life. :)

Ybic - Todd

Rita

on 11/20/09

hehe..you’re right todd! no matter how difficult to live in this flesh, living through Him is more than enough…
I would wait for His right time, and I’ll be happy to delight myself with the Lord while waiting…Bless God.

erin

on 08/20/10

you couldn’t have said this better. as a teen i know what it’s like to struggle with this. it is great to read this and remember that a relationship with God comes first always.

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