God-Given Gift
Testimonies
Naomi kept encouraging me the next couple of weeks. I kept coming and started drifting away from God unfortunately. It was horrible. The worst weeks of my life. Walking through school miserable and numb to everything. I don’t even know what was going on, but I had my best friend. And my boyfriend, Luke, encouraged me and saw that that was what I was supposed to do.
I kept listening to the enemy inside myself, telling me I wasn’t good enough, that they didn’t care, and that I didn’t deserve to be up there. One week, Naomi told me I could sing after all these weeks of waiting for a spot! I was beyond relieved that I thought I had an answer from God. After praying and reading the Bible, I got up there and rehearsed and did pretty good. The next day, I got there a little late to the rehearsal before church. I saw another girl up there but thought nothing of it. Church was starting and that girl was still up there. I walked over and gave the back up singer, Breanna, a confused look. She shook her head no. Sadly I pulled myself together and felt so heavy.
Naomi felt horrible. She had no idea that was gonna happen. She promised me I was going to sing. The next few days, I began giving up on church, singing, and God! I started questioning if he was real. And I’m a strong believer, don’t get me wrong. It was horrible. I skipped the rehearsal and was going to give up. But something was telling me to go to Church. Plus, I was scared because I haven’t missed church in like months. I showed up to church and saw Naomi walking towards me. I froze inside. I didn’t want to look like a quitter. She came to me and gave me a choice to sing or not. I said no. I told her I didn’t have an answer from God. She wanted me up there, I could tell. But I fought and said no.