God Is Real

by AmyLycett

I just knew I was killing myself.

I was brought up not to believe in God, my Dad was a police man and my mom’s a nurse.  I grew up listening to “God bothers all a bunch of nutters” and so on.

At the age of 13, I started using drugs, LSD, Speed, Weed and by the age of 18, I was addicted to Heroin and was smoking Crack.  I fell pregnant and tried staying clean long enough to have my daughter Trinity (I hadn’t got a clue what that name meant I just thought it was different).  When Trinity was born I tried to get clean but just kept falling back. 

Six years on and I was still using, my partner left pretty much after Trinity was born.  I had managed to keep a job as a secretary at a charity organization, where I met a woman (you know I cant remember her name, but God does so I ask him to bless her very often!) who had been ordained - I didn’t know what that meant either!  She started talking to me at work and said she’d prayed for me to have some love. I just thought ‘yeah what ever God bothering Nutter!’ but she kept talking to me (she obviously knew there was something very wrong with me as I’m almost 6 foot tall and I weighed under 8 stone). 

One day when she was talking to me I felt all strange and burst into tears and she told me that was God’s love and all I had to do was offer my life to him.  I still held back. 

Months went and I was struggling with just being alive. I’d tried everything to give up heroin. I’d sellotaped photos of Trinity to my arm and just ended up taking them off again.  I was so desperate. 

It was Valentines day 2004 and on that evening I stood naked in the mirror and just knew I was killing myself.  That night in bed I prayed. I had never prayed before. I said “God I’m handing my life over to you, I’m not asking for you to make me stop but please give me the strength to help me”. 

I never used again.  I said for years it would be too rude not to believe in God! I am fully aware that God is real, we play games together, I love him more than I can express, he is my best friend. 

God has done so many amazing things in my life that even my parents are questioning there own beliefs.  I praise God with all my heart and soul.

"We will not hide them from their children, but tell to the coming generation the glorious deeds of the Lord, and his might, and the wonders that he has done." Psalm 78:4