God’s Physical Voice

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published on 04/02/09
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I struggled with horrible doubts and feelings of disconnection

Being blessed with a Christian home growing up, I accepted Christ at a very early age and had God genuinely in my heart. At about the age of 15 or 16, I went through many un-ending months where I struggled with horrible doubts and feelings of disconnection from God. Satan was entangling my heart and mind by throwing these doubts at me left right and center. Although I knew 100% for sure that God was real and the Bible was truly accurate, I could barely pray and I could barely think of “God” throughout my day without immediately doubting my connection with Him or doubting His true existence.

Going to church, speaking with trusted people in my life… nothing was helping me, and God felt empty and distant (even though He is not, in reality). It got worse and worse, and was seriously messing me up. I would shed tears over it; when I prayed, it felt like I was speaking to nobody, and I was giving up on keeping connected with Him throughout the day because it felt like there was no one out there on the other end of the line. I knew, inside, that He was present, but I was bombarded by Satan’s doubt’s and thoughts of constant negativity.

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on 04/05/09

I’m still 13 years old and I was very religious when I was still a kid. I grew up from a very religious family, and I studied before in a Christian School. But as I started growing, I felt that God isn’t listening to me anymore and I felt like trash.. Until I started to doubt on him and not have faith on him. I stopped praying and thanking him, and I even stopped asking forgiveness to him. I told myself that I don’t believe in him then I’ll just start to sob at the middle of the night and ask myslef, “But why is it I still don’t feel contented? I feel like there is a space here im my heart..” I just can’t explain the feeling. Then there came a time this March 2009, that our family had a very big problem that time. Financial problems. My dad started praying in his room, while me, I just can’t stand it. So I locked myself in my room and laid down, I started praying to God again. I told him the reasons why I doubt him, my problems, that I was ashamed to talk to him again and other things. I then started to cry. I felt like talking to air. Then I fell asleep. I woke up because I felt my cellphone vibrating. I was schocked when I saw that the Client of my father (He works as a Real Estate Agent and a Computer Graphic Designer) was calling. I immediately got up and gave the phone to my dad. His client wants my dad to go to his inn to finish his design. So it means that we will be gettimg money that day. That is the time when I knew that God was listening to me and he is always here for all of us. I liked your story too^^.

on 04/07/09

When i was on the streets doing my own thing I had my children home with there dad. I just didn’t care about no one but me. I use to call my mom and tell her my problems and she would tell me to pray. When she would say pray it’s like this argue came over me and I would say pray for what. The reason why I didn’t pray was because I knew that if I would pray God will get me off the streets. Until one day I went and got me a room and I was in there watching porn. Its like I seen all this scary creature around me then for the first time I call out to Jesus. I ask God whatever he want me to do I will do . He (God) told me, ‘’to go back to the family he appointed me to’’. I had decided to walk away from that life and never look back. I had told this pastor what had happen and he told me that satan is angry because I am not working for him anymore. Six days later my apartment caught on fire and I almost lost my oldest daughter. When we made it out safe I just stood there in shock looking at my apartment on fire. My mouth start moving and I said, God had it been that I have listen long time ago all this could have been avoided. I heard this voice so calm said, don’t worry my child I will buried the old and start you over new but only under His name. I had this peace that no one understood. I thank God for life. I thank God that He shows Himself to us when we just about to give up. His love is great for us all. Just keep the faith and know that God is in control of ALL things. Amen

on 08/07/09

every blessing and gift is from GOD...be thankful of what you have,,we are good,precious,loved,and SPECIAL in the eyes of GOD..dont demand on him of what you want,,.just pray,and he will listen to your problems,he will help you solve it,,..REMEMBER,,if what GOD had given you,,return it to him,,if you have talents,use it for him,,.and if you have all the blessings and gifts in your life,dont forget to thank him..,.HE LOVES US VERY MUCH..

on 08/19/09

that exact same thing happened to me. I was 15, 16 as well too..saved..very involved in Christ and believed with my whole, whole heart..then satan started throwing those horrible whispers in my ears “he’s not real, he’s not real” I would cry too. It would hurt. I knew God was real. But it burned. I believed, and someone supernatural was taking over my head telling me he wasnt..its good to know that i truly wasn’t the only one in the world who faced that..it must mean we’ll have an amazing affect on the world if satan battled us like that, so early.

on 08/27/09

Many years ago I was a drunkard, and I mean world class.  Shortly after my Son was born, I woke up in a dingy motel, sick unto death.  I had been drunk for at least 2 months, I was passing blood and vomiting blood and simply put, I was dying. I did not mind the dying, beecause I felt that I was allready in hell, but I did not want to die drunk and have my Son reminded that his Daddy was a drunk and died drunk. I knelt down at the foot of the bed and for the first time that I could remember, I was honest with God. My prayer was that God, I have lied to You all my life, and You know that I wiil drink this slop for as long as I live, but if You will take it from me, I will die before I ever touch another drop.  I got up and I was just as drunk and sick as I was before kneeling down and praying. The devil spoke to me, and I heard him, and he said he was going to make me sicker than I had ever been, and believe me, I was and had been very sick in my life from alcohol, with DTs and all.  Jesus spoke to me and said, Carl, you have asked Me to heal you, what are you going to do, and I heard no more,but it startled me for sure.  My dear friends, I walked to the door of that motel, opened the door and walked through.  When I shut that door, God instantly healed me.  In an instant, I became as sober as I am right now, I passed no more blood, vomited no more blood, my liver was not swollen any more, my hands were not shaking, I could actually keep a glass of water on my stomach. I could even write my name. People, all this happened faster than you can blink your eye. God is so good.  He had mercy on me when I deserved nothing. That was 34 years ago, and I have not had one single thought of drinking since that day. Thank you JESUS< Thank you JESUS

on 11/10/09

The voice of an Angel The Hand of God
Truly God is so awesome, one of many stories that came to mind after this wonderful testimony is going back before i even became a Christian. I was at an aniversary club party in London with some friends, after having a nice evenings entertainment, it was time to say our good byes, so asked a friendly policeman the road back to Hastings were we lived, well after about 55 miles or so my friend Trace and i were nearly home. He was asleep with he’s seat belt on, I was very tired without my seat belt on and dosed off while traveling at 65 70 miles per hour. I can remember it as if it were yesterday. As i nodded off to sleep ‘at that precise moment’ an audioble voice ‘kind but stern’, said. Paul ! wake up you are just about to crash!, and sure enough I was...then the voice said, hold the wheel...push your self down in the seat!! I did this amiediatly as bye now the car was out of control on the winding roads pebble verge and began to spin over and over, I can remember the window screen smashing in as the car continued to roll..then in a split second the voice said Let Go NOW!! I snached my hands from the steering wheel and was imediatly lifted from the car into mid air as though I was in slow motion and was placed on the soft grass embankment!! without a scratch!! I was uterly amazed as a wheels came rolling past my totally writen off motor, I looked in to see if my friend was ok, he was bleeding and groaning, but well alive, a lorry stopped and called an ambulance, the next day the police said it was a mirrical that we servived, I told him the story, he said oh thats a good one i haven’t heard one like that before, little did he know. Not long after that in a prision cell serveing time for possesion of a sawn off shot Gun. The lord finaly showed me who he realy is. I had a spirit filled vision in my cell that was a life changeing experience, and now thankyou Jesus i’m born again, belong to a loving Christian fellowship and God our Lord Jesus is just about to send me to minister in India.. wow!! what a chalenge Praise God, and what an amazeing awesome God we have. Thank you Jesus

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