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My family has a long history of depression and anxiety and unfortunately I was no exception.  When I was a young teen I also began to experience deep bouts of depression.  Luckily I did have some measure of faith being raised with Christian beliefs.  I was familiar with the bible.  So in my agony I began to read the bible more thoroughly searching for relief and searching for God.

I came upon a verse, Matthew 7:7 which said “Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.” 

So after reading these words I became very determined to get closer to God every day and to pray for healing every day.  From then on every day when I got home I read the bible and prayed for hours upon hours.  I did this for about a month or two. 

One day when I was deep in prayer something startling happened.  God spoke to me!  But it wasn’t the usual kind of voice.  It was not audible or within my head it was from the core of my being.  The type of feeling where you just knew who it was.  It was so shocking to me that I immediately stopped praying. 

To this day I don’t know what exactly was said, the feeling/voice was very distant, but strong.  However the message was clear that God loved me and sought to comfort me.  After that I was so filled with joy that my depression lifted. 

I discontinued my long rituals of prayer and now live my life with your basic daily prayers.  But I will never forget that experience.  Although it was very personal, it was my personal proof that God does exist and loves us all very much.  I don’t know why there is so much pain in the world or why things are the way they are, but maybe its much too complex for us to understand completely.  All I know is that God wants to see us through every difficulty and wants to love and comfort us at every turn in life, seek and ye shall find.